Elijah and HSP

sweet Elijah. this post is all about you... baby you and i have been through some real crap these past 10 days. and when i say crap that's putting it nicely... it's been more than that but you dont need to read the words i am thinking... we will just use the word CRAP....
i love you more than you will ever know or comprehend. you are my first born, you saved me the day i found out you were growing in my tummy. i will never even begin to be able to pay God back for the joy He gave me when He gave me you...
you my sweet boy have been through so much and yet as i type this you are playing in the bath, using your wild imagination and as happy as can be... Elijah, yesterday you were diagnosed with HSP. it's basically an attack on your little body but the good thing is that you will get better!!! you will go to the dr more often to make sure your kidneys are functioning well... that means you get to pee in a cup several times in a year... hahaha i still remember when you saw me peeing in a cup when i was pregnant with Jackson. it was hilarious... but um yea that's enough of that...
darling little angel, you are one tough kid... this sickness has caused you to have swelling and welts on your body and lots of bruising... you can't walk at times. your hands hurt and you are so tired and not hungry... it makes me so sad just writing this... i hate seeing you sick. i would gladly take it from you if i could. i hope you know that...
we just have to give you plenty of rest and fluids and keep you from being around many people so you can heal up. your immune system has taken a beating and so we gotta get you back up and running!!! you are such a strong little boy...you try my patience a lot and it's cuz we are so much alike... i hope we get along in your teen years... :))
i am praying for you every minute of every day. you will fight this and get better...
the dr says it can last up to a month. it's been a week. so maybe we can get you better faster than a month!!!!
this all started on a thursday 10 days ago. we thought you twisted your ankle... then on friday you have lots of "bites" or so we thought... then monday you woke up sick, thursday you woke up with pink eye, thursday night your ankle swelled again, and we went to the er and they said it was cellulitis... well it wasnt... saturday afternoon after your nap both your hands were swollen and bruising... Mommy just about lost it... Daddy had just gotten home so we took you to the ER and they diagnosed you with HSP...AND bronchitis!!!! i was glad they had an answer, but heartbroken they couldn't fix you right then and there....
so we came home and daddy got us chick fila... i gave you a bath... you wanted to play "angry giant" with daddy but we told you that you have to lay low for a while... you didnt even whine... i think you know you are sick... you get so tired so fast and i wish you would eat more. in a week you lost half a pound...that makes my heart sad...
Elijah Dean, you are our world and we will get you better!!! your big brother, Mommy and Daddy depend on it!!! we NEED you little man!!!!
when you read my letters to you one day i want you to know that i would die for you, move mountains for you and give you everything you ever need. i love you angel baby.
love Mommy
xoxo
ps. today is Mother's Day. we are all sick (except for Daddy)and you make me my first homemade Mother's Day card and you lit up when i told you i would keep it forever and ever and ever!!!! it's beautiful!!!!
love you baby boy!