Very sad day

Today we had to say goodbye to our amazing and wonderful sweet baby girl Brownie. She was the best dog ever. I am so tired from crying and not sleeping. I can't think straight. I miss her so much knowing that I will never see her again. She was staying at my in laws until we could get her back in October when we get a bigger place with a yard... well she got cancer and was in serious pain. Bone cancer from what the vet could see. She needed to be put down... I had to let my girl go. Hardest decision to make. I am sad and heartbroken. I took her in for a bad sore on her foot, thinking ok maybe her toe would have to be removed...but instead was told she needed to be put down very soon. She had weeks to live and in so much pain. We had to make the decision so we spent one last night with her... and then let her go. :( i will never forget you Brownie girl. I love you sweet sweet girl.

Back to my old dr.

Yesterday was my first app. with my old doctor! I love her so much! And the office staff and nurses are awesome! They all remembered me by name and were so excited to see me. I can't wait to bring Elijah next time so they can meet him. He stayed with Daddy while i went.

As of right now we have that i "prefer a V back" and she will keep an eye on things and see where to go towards the end of this pregnancy. I'm praying it all works out!!! It would be so nice not to be cut open!

Jackson is doing great. I have gained 32 lbs so far, and his heartbeat was around 145 yesterday. He is a very active baby. Not as active as Elijah though.

I have about 14 weeks left. Man i can't believe it!!! I'm just ready for this awful summer to pass. But for now I will enjoy every minute I have with Elijah.